Mistletoe and Macarons: An Island Academy Novella by Mia Williams

Author:Mia Williams [Williams, Mia]
Language: eng
Format: epub
Publisher: Clota Press
Published: 2024-02-26T00:00:00+00:00

Matt

Ben’s insecurities have been an issue for us before. When I first met Jocelyn, I knew she was the one for us, but then it turned out that Ben had met her already. They were working together, and he was the giant asshole I’d heard her complaining about numerous times when she visited my shop. He knew where she trained, who her family was and assumed she was a stuck-up snob with more opportunities than her talent deserved. His words, not mine. Ben sometimes forgets that my background is every bit as wealthy as Jocelyn’s and just because I choose to work and run a business doesn’t mean I have to.

They’ve been less of an issue for us in the bedroom, however, and I’m genuinely wondering what has brought this on. I’m older than him, was already far more experienced by the time we met, although he was far from being a virgin, so we fell into the roles we prefer easily. He’s never topped me and now, as I watch his face and read his body language, I realise that this is something I’ve failed to see in him.

I can see the desperation in his face and it looked like it almost killed him to frame that as a demand rather than beg me for it. There’s a fine line between being in control and refusing to listen to others and maybe even bullying. I’ve never seen myself that way, but tonight is making me reassess… everything, really. And it’s hard to work out what to say, how I can give him permission to be the one in control for once, without being the one in control in order to do so. As I struggle to unpick a way around that paradox, it hits me that there is only one thing that I really need to say right now. It might not fix everything, it might not fix anything, but he needs to know. It’s both the hardest, and the easiest thing I’ve ever said to him.

“I love you.”

Jocelyn’s lips curve into a huge smile as she looks up at Ben. She’s desperate for him to be okay and part of me is annoyed that he’s making her worry like this, but I realise that if this hadn’t happened tonight, it would have continued to fester and one thing that I know is going to be key if three of us together is ever going to work is that we need to be honest.

Should I blame Ben for not being honest? No. I can see that it’s been fear of being honest, of asking for something that he wants, something he thinks I’m not willing to give him, that’s led to this.

“What do you need, Ben?”

There’s a long pause. Either he’s confused about what he truly needs, or else he’s unsure how to ask for it, or worse, that he’s afraid to ask for it. Despite me trying not to force my dominant tendencies into this situation right now, I think maybe I need to.

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